thanks seto & ziying ((: muah.

hello TK (: hahaha. welcome. grins.

oooh. i'm feeling so much lighter, happier and bouncier after talking to yipeng. hahaha. this boy does have his uses sometimes. smirks. and i'm sure he'll be very grateful to me after this year cos of all the flights of stairs he climbed. haha. exercise mah. but yes, i realise we think in the same way. we basically throw ourselves into whatever we want to do. kill ourselves to do it. in a test of our abilities, determination and willpower. the same way i am obsessing about ellen. to the point that her habits and characteristics come to me like that. he understands. he appreciates. he approves. and it makes me feel like i'm not so fucking insane after all (: thank god.

makes me put alot of things in a relative viewpoint. interesting.

my friends and cast's concern for me is very touching (: but yes, i've not gone over the edge yet. thank you.

i think i'm really preparing to walk away. i thought everything would be simple and uncomplicated. i'm complicated, messy and damaged enough. i don't need more complications, mess and damage. that might just push me off the edge.